Mind vs. Heart, Logic vs. Feeling

Have you ever noticed that there is an ever-present internal conflict between your mind and your heart? What is it with these two? Don't they know that we don't like our minds to be clouded with confusion? Don't they know that we humans like everything to be completely obvious? We do not like playing the guessing game. However, they do.

There are certain situations that pop up in life that I wish these two could just agree on. Take relationships. For instance, say you are friends with someone, and that is that. Friends only. No other feelings involved. Then one day you wake up and suddenly, everything has changed. What decided this change, we have no idea. But things are just...different.You wonder what to do about these new feelings. Your mind says: Don't do or say anything about the situation. Things are great between you the way they are, telling him (or her) could ruin everything. Than your heart says: Why not say anything? So you like them, big deal. Maybe this is meant to be. Maybe everything will work out. Why not?

So what do you do? Do you side with your mind and logic? Or do you side with your ever-changing heart and feelings? Should you risk everything and place your bet on your heart? Or should you take the safe route and follow your logic? Do you tell the one you like that you indeed like them? Do you risk the safety of your friendship by telling them this? Or do you stay on the safe side and not tell them? Secure your heart from the risk of rejection and heartache, or take a risk and see if it ends in your favor?


Mind or heart? Which do you choose...

P&P addict...

Hello! My name is Stephanie and I am a Pride and Prejudice addict.

Now aside from my AA reference...

Honestly, this has got to be the best book-turned-movie I have ever seen in my life. I could watch it over and over again. Plus, Mr. Darcy (aside from being totally dreamy) is one of the greatest leading men of all time. Who couldn't love a man that says, "you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on."

I mean c'mon ladies! I know every single one of you would drool and probably pass out if an incredibly dashing man with dark curly hair and light eyes (who wasn't mocking and was saying it in all sincerity) said that to you. Or maybe it's just me? Either way, I am holding out for my very own Mr. Darcy. Because you know what? I deserve it! And you know who else deserves it? Every single person on the earth.

We all deserve to be loved. Not just loved, but appreciated and adored UNCONDITIONALLY. And if the man just so happens to be a total hunk, then so be it.

"To achieve happiness, we should make certain that we are never without an important goal." - Ralph Waldo Emereson

A couple weeks ago in Relief Society our Bishop's wife taught a lesson about the importance of setting goals. She said that when you write your goals down on piece of paper, and commit to looking at them often, they have a greater chance of being fulfilled. She then challenged each of us to write down all of our goals. So here they are. My list of goals I'd like to achieve in this lifetime. I figure that if I share them with you (my readers, if there are any! haha), that you can gain a greater perspective of who I am, and who I would like to become. Also, that you might help me to achieve them! Keep in mind, these are in no particular order and there are lots of things I could add to the list...I just can't think of them right now!

GOALS
*Go to Cosmetology school
*Get a degree
*Be an EFY counselor
*Work at an orphanage in another country (Africa?)
*Build a house or someone who needs it
*Run a marathon
*Go to Europe
*Write a song (lyrics and music)
*Record and sell an album
*Get married in the temple
*Have lots of children (haha!)
*Go on a mission with my husband
*Stop being shy around new people
*Create a recipe
*Design and sew myself an outfit
*Be positive!
*Be a positive role model to those around me
*Change someone's life for the better
*Keep a journal

I'm BACK!

Dear blogging world,
I am sorry that I have been away for so long. I promise I am going to be here for awhile this time. So since it has been such a long time, let's catch up!

Boys:
I like this guy (to any of you that know me, or to anyone that has ever read my blog, this comes as NO surprise I'm sure). He's wonderful, talented, smart, nice to look at, and confusing. Boo. I'm only "booing" about the being confusing part. Everything else about him is more of a "WooHooooooo!" There will be more on him later, and at that time I will refer to him as "Toy Story".

Books:
All I am reading these days are texts books and the Scriptures (which for me is technically a text book). I wish I had more time to read, however I do not. Except I have been reading President Gordon B. Hinckley's book Way To Be! and I love it! He is such an amazing man with such a positive attitude. I HIGHLY recommend it.

The one book that I am dying to read right now is President Uchtdorf's new book The Remarkable Soul of a Woman.

Bruises:
None to report, which is surprising.

Things I am looking forward to:
* 3 day weekend!
* Devotional tomorrow.
* The future and all that Heavenly Father has in store for me.
* Learning how to play the guitar better.
* Vacation in August.
* The sun and the warmth that is supposed to come with it. Rexburg is cold.
* SYTYCD starting on Thursday.
* Seeing what happens with Toy Story.

XOXO,
Steph

"You're untouchable burning brighter than the sun, now that you're close i feel like comin' undone"

BOYS are confusing. Honestly, why can't dating just be simple?

You meet a boy. He asks you out. You date and see where it goes. How easy is that???

But no, it has to be complicated. You meet a boy. He seems interested. He asks you on a date. You have a great time, or so you think. Than he doesn't talk to you for a couple days. You decided he isn't interested, so you quit trying and attempt to move on. Than a certain time later, the boy becomes interested again. WHYYYYYYYYYY?????

It all seems a bit ridiculous and stupid, yet this always happens to me. I QUIT. I am done trying to analyze everything and figure everything out. I need a vacation.

Song of the Day: Untouchable By: Taylor Swift

Quote of the Day: "No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends." ~Carrie from Sex and the City

"I wanna go home, ooh i miss you you know."

Well today was certainly interesting. It started about being a great day. My Book of Mormon class was cancelled so I(look Hil i capitalized the I for you!) only had one class to go to which is always nice! On top of that, this particular class just happens to be my favorite(for more than one reason! ;) ). Anyway, so after class Haley(aka Beaner Schnitzel, Jennifer, or bes fwend) and I went to the temple to do baptisms. What a blessing the temple is! Such a great place to feel the spirit and be close to the Lord. LOVED IT! Then, we headed over to Sonic for our FREE route 44 drinks! Ooohh baby, do we love our "celestial" drink: Dr. Pepper. We're pathetic and we know it, but we really don't care. After our quick pit stop, we headed over to the Paul Mitchell Hair School so I could get my hair cut.

WORST IDEA I HAVE EVER HAD EVER!

I told the girl I needed a trim and she was all, "Okay! We'll just cut off an inch! So i'm thinking a normal inch. You know the knuckle of your finger inch? Well apparently she's not very good at measuring, seeing as she cut off THREE inches. UGH. Now my beautiful hair that has taken me what seems like centuries to grow out, is gone. The second I got into Hay's car I started tearing up. Sounds like a dumb reason to cry, I know, but I seriously could not help it. I continued to cry, eventually sobbing, for the next hour or so. It's still a very sensitive subject so please don't bring it up for a couple days, okay?

Well enough of that! I have SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much to be grateful for! I'm just being a "whiney bags" as my dad would say. So since this is the month of THANKSgiving, i'm going to start posting things I am grateful for.

1. FAMILY
My beautiful sister Hillary. She is always there for me. Even when I tell useless stories ten trillion times and use poor grammar she still loves me! She's helped me to become the person she knew I could be. Strong, smart, talented, and even beautiful(I never thought I was until she told me so). Love her to pieces!




My amazing Grammy. What an ispiration! LOVE HER TO DEATH! (p.s. isn't she STUNNING!?)



My mom. Aka: my twin. Also, one of the funniest people i know (though i usually don't admit it when she asks!). She put up with me when I was a total snot growing up, and even when I am now, which i think is AMAZING! We've been through some rough times, but I know she loves me no matter what!



My stepmom Patty! She is such an amazing woman! She listens to all of my boy stories and always seems interested in EVERY aspect of my life, even the parts that aren't interesting at all! Also, she sends me buys me awesome presents because we all know my dad can't do it! Haha Oh! And another thing...she sends me packages full of things I leave at home and even washes my tennis shoes for me! (thanks again!)



And last but certainly not least, my Dad. He is ALWAYS there for me when i'm having a rough day and just need someone to talk to. I don't think he's aware of it, but he always seems to know the perfect things to say to me when i'm feeling down or sad about something. I love him so much and I have been blessed to have him as my dad.



2. FRIENDS

My AZ girls! Can't wait to see you guys in 2 weeks!



And my Haley! I don't know what I would do if she wasn't up here with me! She ALWAYS makes me laugh no matter what kind of day i've had. There is never a dull moment with us, and honestly I wouldn't have it any other way. I love that we can have a super deep conversation, and yet our favorite song is Party in the USA by Miley Cyrus. I LOVE THIS GIRL TO DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!!






Of course, I am grateful for TONS more people and things, but I have to do my homework sometime! Remember, there are still a few more weeks left before the end of November. So still plenty of time to blog more about what i'm thankful for!


Song of the day: Home by Michael Buble

Quote of the day: "Come what may and LOVE it!" -Joseph B. Wirthlin

"I'm a dreamer who should have known better"

I dream to much. Not in the sense that i sleep too much. I'm a college student who rarely sleeps. But, in the sense that i DAYdream too much. I am constantly thinking about things that usually have absolutely NOTHING to do with what i'm doing. For instance, today i was sitting in my American Foundations class(FYI this is the most boring, useless class of all time.), but i could NOT, for the life of me, stop thinking about boys(shocker, i know. get used to the boy talk). While my teacher was talking about...actually i can't remember what he was talking about...well anyway, while he was talking about SOMETHING, i kept thinking about how confusing boys are. One in particular. I can't figure this kid out and it drives me NUTS! I'm sure all you girls out there know what i'm talking about. Those guys that seem soooo interested half the time, than act like you don't exist the other half. Yeah, THOSE guys. This boy is one of them and it drives me mad. I have a horrible tendency to over-analyze things, and this is one of those cases. I find myself sitting in class, when i should be paying attention, weighing all of the different scenarios of how he could feel about me. YUCK. I hate that i do it, yet i can't help it.

Then i started thinking about marriage. I just can't seem to get away from that subject. EVERYONE, and i repeat, EVERYONE here is married. Ugh. Well anyway, i started thinking about how much easier and less stressful life would be if in our Patriarchal Blessing it gave the name of who we were going to marry. I mean, think about it...What if you knew your husband already, but didn't know you were supposed to be married! I mean, i understand that life is full of mysteries that are fun to solve, but come ON! Give me a break here!

Okay, for those of you who don't know my current boy situation, i guess i should fill you in. There's this boy. We'll call him BabyFace(because he has one! haha). I like him a LOT. He seems interested. We even went on a date. BUT! Here is the kicker...............are you ready for it????...................he has a GIRLFRIEND. Gag. So there ya go. You are now filled in. :)

QUOTE OF THE DAY: this little insightful comment came from my friend Blake Butcher in the library today. while telling him about BabyFace, he said, "Just because there is a goalie, doesn't mean you can't score." Hahahahahaha SOOOO TRUE!

SONG OF THE DAY: "Dreamer" by Kari Kimmel